Pixie's Space

I dream of you But what I dream is slowly killing me Do you know? Can you guess? Do you even care? Maybe it was never real for you, It couldn't have been For you have forgotten me so easily Fallen In love with another I struggle with not hating her Hating you for what you've made me My heart hurts too much I feel like I'm dying But you can't save me Because you don't love me.   Feb 21, 2012

Have you ever seen a cyclone Have you ever seen the chaos of the wind Chaos that grabs every little thing Chaos that knows no boundaries Limited only by God's breath Limited not by our small imaginations Imagine the world as a vortex Imagine a life that never leaves the wind Wind carries you far and wide Wind never sets you down to rest Rest is impossible when you're caught up in the choas Rest will never happen while the cyclone steals your breath Your home Your Family Your life Your everything... Have you ever seen a cyclone?    Nov 18, 2011

Struggling with this addiction Weighted down by His conviction Ignoring His offer of Salvation Hating myself to distraction Giving the enemy the satisfaction Of claiming my soul for his evil faction THEN GOD TAKES ACTION ! Defeating my addiction Rejoicing in the conviction Of the truth of His salvation Worshiping Him to Distraction Giving GOD the satisfaction Of not joining the enemy's faction.   Jan 8, 2012

I'm so ashamed The guilt weighs upon my shoulders Like bricks stacked one upon another Ready to topple waiting to crush me For being human I've fallen again My knee's ache with the force of the fall and I wonder will they ever heal? I see His hand Reaching out to me Ready to lift me From this miry ditch But He is clean And I am filthy How could I ever Reach out to Him I might taint His pure love and cause others to fall Because I'm human I look away Rejecting His help I feel this pain so sharp and deep within this black heart of mine I turn to see His face is contorted and He has fallen to His knee's His arms are raised and I hear His voice but He isn't speaking to me He's speaking to His Father In shame I listen as He offers His pure blood to pay the price for my failures He weeps for me I want to flee to run away from Him But the weight is so heavy I can't move I can only sink further into the dark ...

I can see it hovering, watching, waiting. It's so close I can feel the heaviness it's carrying, smell the desperation. It wants me. I stand, staring, challenging it with my eyes, fearing that it will consume me once more. It comes closer and I can feel the grayness waiting to swallow the color of my life. It knows that I have yet to win a battle with it, it's counting on that. I keep my guard up, but I feel the weariness taking hold. I can barely stand my ground in the face of it's mocking gaze. It taunts me with my past, present and future. It knows what to say to weigh my heart down, to cause me to lower my shield and relax my stance. I realize it's winning and I back away, tripping over my own insecurities. It moves closer ready to pounce. I gain my feet and run, but it's too late, it's wrapping around me, getting ready to steal my joy and my smile. I cry out for help and hear no answer, terrified, lost and unable to claw my way out I know...

I am the princess in the Tower , Besieged by the king of sin, taunted by the minions of the evil one fiery arrows are launched wounding my mortal heart All hope is lost and I cry out to my Father ... Silence as the minions run and the evil king trembles for they know that their battle is lost Yet at the enraged cry from their master they turn and persist... Then there is a roar from the Lion of Judah as The Rock is released to destroy my foe... In the chaos all I hear is a still small voice... "Daughter, you are within MY Strong Tower , standing upon MY Rock . MY Rock will never falter, MY walls never fail. For MY Son paid your debt and you have surrendered to the One True King . As long as you stand upon MY Rock , and stay withing MY Strong Tower , the evil one can not destroy you... The voice stills and as I look down from the Tower and see dark red blood washing over the battlefield turning it white as snow, I fall to my knee's weeping and bo...